Good morning,
It's 3:30 am and for some reason, I'm still awake. Several hours ago I
finished a huge project that took several weeks of long hours hoovering
over a keyboard and paper shuffling. It feels odd to not have a deadline
looming over my head. Coldplay, Parachutes is deeply comforting to me on
this introspective morning. That along with a dose of Tranquility du Jour
#191 "Life is a verb" on iTunes to help me channel my inner go-getter.
I recently spoke to a former co-worker that I had not been in contact with
in months and she told me that I helped to inspire her to pursue her doctoral
degree full-time when I left teaching to pursue writing. Imagine that. I've
never really considered myself to be so important as to "inspire" anyone.
Encouraging, yes. Inspiring... that's kinda major. I can say that Kimberly's
Tranquility channel helped to propel me to take charge of my happiness
tremendously when I was a kindergarten teacher sitting @ my desk during nap
time, longing to live outside of the box.
Like my friend/co-worker said, "All it took was faith." These days are very
different from my former life as a teacher. I feel free. Happier than I've
been in a long time. In some ways I've felt somewhat guilty for the everyday
pleasure that I get from staying up late (usually working) and sleeping, most
days until my body tells me to awaken. I (along with others) questioned my
passion & commitment to teaching-- like I was supposed to do that one
thing for the rest of my life. Teaching was satisfying in a do-gooder kind
of way. Living as an artist, student & entreprenuer is fulfilling in a
deeply personal way. It's like I'm on the right path to something amazing.
Teaching, I think, was a small part of my god-given gift. It is something
that will always naturally be a part of me, whether I work with children or
in other capacities.
I'm glad my friend, who is also a new wife & mom has also found her way
towards greater fulfillment. I don't feel so bad about sharing my joy when I
know that she, one of the BEST teachers that I know is just as elated as I am
to be free. She tells me that now she has time like she never had before to be
with her loved ones while pursuing something that is enriching her intellect
and professional goals.
We both agree that going to school full-time is no cake walk,
but the benefits are so sweet.
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